Now when Jesus heard this, he withdrew from there in a boat to a desolate place by himself. But when the crowds heard it, they followed him on foot from the towns. When he went ashore he saw a great crowd, and he had compassion on them and healed their sick. Now when it was evening, the disciples came to him and said, “This is a desolate place, and the day is now over; send the crowds away to go into the villages and buy food for themselves.” But Jesus said, “They need not go away; you give them something to eat.” They said to him, “We have only five loaves here and two fish.” And he said, “Bring them here to me.” Then he ordered the crowds to sit down on the grass, and taking the five loaves and the two fish, he looked up to heaven and said a blessing. Then he broke the loaves and gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the crowds. And they all ate and were satisfied. And they took up twelve baskets full of the broken pieces left over. And those who ate were about five thousand men, besides women and children.
Matthew 14:13-21 ESV
Jesus blows away the disciples and the crowds, by providing for a basic need in a way that can only be answered by the fact that through him everything exists. He owns everything, commands everything, sustains everything.
This is no mind-bending discovery, but over these few months of support raising, and now with the AC breaking down, it’s just hitting me in a real way that Jesus is everything I need. Jesus+nothing=everything. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. If God did not spare his own Son, how will he not with him graciously give us all things? Jesus gives freely to me anything I need, and I’m experiencing lately that even when it’s not something I necessarily would’ve chosen for myself, it’s always the best thing for my soul, and he always brings me through it.
Thank you, Jesus, for showing yourself to be the only fountain of provision that can be fully trusted in my life. I depend on you more now because of these recent events you’ve brought me through, and I want to trust you even more. Just up ahead are more things I can trust you in. Leading worship at students is a big one that I could potentially be very anxious about, and I want to say right now that I submit that to you. Whether you want to increase my faith in you by providing me with exceptional ability, or by humbling me with embarrassing moment after embarrassing moment, I know it will be worth it. Keep me close to you as the ultimate provider in all of these experiences.
This post is part of my Weekly REAP series. I’m posting these from my personal journal to share what God is teaching me, and to give some practical examples of the REAP method. I didn’t write any of these with publishing in mind, so forgive me if they don’t always wax eloquent. Here is some more information on the REAP study method.